Today I found myself throughout the day, having the same reptitive abuse going through my head, that came from the system. "The system" meaning Social Security Disability. No, I'm thankful that I have it. Lets not go there. But I'm not thankful of how they pingeon-holed me to keep my finances in the dump, (at poverty level) to where I would have to owe them money to get off of SSD. 

They never give us enough to cover our rent. Yet when you have that and other bills, you can get a ticket to go back to work on SSD, for a nine month trail peroid, while keeping your finances at or below proverty level. Otherwise, you have to pay it all back to them. Now, if you do well on the "Back to Work" program, staying within the limits of SSD, after nine months, they will stop your benefits, leaving you homeless unless you can get someone to pay for you or take you in. At least in that situation, you won't be owing them the money back.

Another option is to apply for disability housing, where you pay one third of what you get on SSD, for your rent. Often, the waiting period is between eight and fifteen years. Meanwhile, if Social Security stops your benefits after a successful nine month back to work peroid, you now have to move out of disabled housing, and pay high rent again. See how screwed up this system really is? 

The US government tries to sugar coat everything. The next option is transferible Section 8. This can be used in conjunction with your SSD benefits, so that you are not living on the proverty line. Oh, but congress has decided not to fund Section 8. You're not going to get it, so you're still on the list. So back to below the proverty line with SSD benefits again!

I've had it! I'm changing all these abusive repetitive tapes. I will do what it takes to support myself and my family while having the income that we deserve. That's the positive. The solution is to remove myself,  step by step, so that I don't have to pay Social Security back.  I would have to add in a part-time job that I am compatible with, along with my abilities as a writer, CPT, and Spin Instructor.