Learning to face unexpected hardships while disabled, is so much more complicated. I never realized how much more complicated it was, until I became disabled.
Recently we went through such a hardship when my husband’s father passed away, and I was in the middle of a flare. When I found out my husband’s dad had died, I faked it like I was fine so he would not worry about me while he had to be out of town. Knowing he was my caregiver, I did not want him to feel bad about leaving me alone. It just took every ounce of strength to take care of myself, but I figured out how to do everything on my own. I got the dog out to go to the bathroom. I cooked and did dishes, and washed up by myself, but it was very hard and made my back hurt really badly.
But I proved to myself (in a pinch for a few days), I could do it. I would not be happy about it but I could do it
Even when we think we can’t, we often find something deep inside we didn't know we had. We find the strength to do what we need to do. Or is that being a woman?
Either way, I'll never doubt myself again.