I am slowly learning to come to grips that I do in fact have MS and it does affect my abilities. I am learning to cope with needing to depend on others for help. That is very difficult for me as I have always been a caregiver and never a patient.
This is a learning curve I never wanted to go through. But I am here now and let me tell you it is the hardest thing I have been through.
Giving up my pride and learning to swallow my it and take the help I need, sometimes makes me cry. Other times it makes me mad. To me, my independence is key to me surviving this thing called MS.
I realize people are trying to help me. Rght now I only can handle the help when I ask. I am asking for help now, and I never did in the pas,t so for me that is a big step.
I can’t help others if I can’t learn to help myself. I have to face the hard reality that this is my life now.
It is time to take the bull by the horns here. I may get bucked off again, but I have to keep trying, even if it means I have to shed some tears to get through it. With my husband Todd, I am able to be weak when I need to be, and I will again relearn how to be strong.
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