I am a Writer.

Someone asked me once what I do all day. I don't go to a program to be watched, so I must be bored. When I announced that I was a writer, the look I got was, to say the least, one of shock. Apparently, I don't fit the writer profile. No one see's the pages of crumpled, discarded work. I'm published here, but I don't post as often as most people so how can I think I'm a writer?

Well I think I'm a writer because that is what I am. I decided that this is what I was when I was in the sixth grade and that is what I became. As for the mess associated with writing, I write everything long hand before I write it on the computer. I tend to write where I can stay the most comfortable. I lay in the bed and write. That means I use a lot of steno pads and loose leaf paper. I write about a lot of topics for blogs before I pick the one I type. Why, if I develop a lot of ideas for blogs, do I post so rarely?

I want my blog to stay upbeat. I see stuff every day that I write about in my steno, stuff that I could develop into a blog post. I live in an elderly and disability friendly building, so walking down my hall, there are at least three topics I could write about just today. Unless I can find a workable solution or an upbeat way to write about the problem, I won't post on it. Why do I follow such strict rules? I believe that we are already seen in a bad light. Companionship in the form of animals is already difficult. Transportation is difficult. Aide care is a mess. We all know it, and talking about it just makes us all more frustrated.

Why do that? Why upset health conditions that only get worse when they get upset? Am I acting like someone's mom when I make the choices I do? Yes and I don't care. We all get kicked around by life so much that I don't want to add to it. I know teens who may see this. I know parents who have a disabled child. Me moaning online will benefit no one, so I don't do it. We all decide for ourselves who we are. I decided I'm a writer. Who will you decide to be?