It wasn't easy adjusting after the accident. I've always had something "wrong" with me; other people's words, never my own. But after the accident, it just became so much more. I had cursed the world in return for hexing me with this sort of luck. Anyone would have thought that it couldn't get much worse for me.
So once I got home from the hospital, I was a mess. Crying, day and night. Thinking "why me?" Was there something I had done in a past life to deserve this? Or was I just the bottom of the barrel?
One day my little sister came in, determined to cheer me up. She'd hauled the television from her own room and set it up next to my bed while I slept off my grief, and when I woke up she was attaching an HDMI cable from her laptop to the screen. We watched a bit of a cartoon movie on Netflix when she got a better idea; to look up some of the most well-known shows about people with disabilities, in case they could help me.
I was reluctant at first. I wanted to feel sorry for myself.
I'm glad that I gave in. Here are three movies on Netflix that helped me through my recovery.
"A bout with scarlet fever has rendered Helen Keller (Patty Duke) blind, deaf and mute. When her parents can no longer cope with the feral girl's tantrums, they call in inexperienced but innovative teacher Annie Sullivan (Anne Bancroft). Though Helen perceives sign language as a finger game, Annie's unflagging tutelage ultimately awakens in her charge the concept of words. Bancroft (Best Actress) and Duke (Supporting Actress) won Oscars for their work."
When I asked myself in a fit of depression, who could have it worse than me? This movie was the answer.
"The story of the life and career of the legendary rhythm and blues musician Ray Charles, from his humble beginnings in the South, where he went blind at age seven, to his meteoric rise to stardom during the 1950s and 1960s."
"A speech teacher uses unconventional methods to reach his hearing-impaired students, but can't make headway with the school's deaf custodian, who thinks it's better to stay in the safety of her voiceless milieu than to contend with a callous world."
This movie speaks to me, as I've been relentlessly bullied over my disabilities while growing up. All of these movies are hard to watch, but they're also awe-inspiring and tear-jerking.
I hope you can make the best of our lives, as I am now doing.
Photo by Alan Light of Ray Charles at the 1990 Grammy Awards.