You little perfect flaw
You little damaged brain
You try to defeat me
with electricity and rain.
This battle between you and I is leaving me cold
I want to be bold
Yet you're constantly telling me how weak, and helpless I am.
I want to rip you apart and burn you until you're gone.
But how can I do that when my brain
is literally the cause of my perfectly imperfect body.
we have a love-hate bond
and that will stay.
I like to think of you and I as separate entities
but together we make up the person I am.
It's a constant fight with you
I don't let you stop me you just do.
I can't control the choice you made
to live inside my soul.
you creep into my muscles
and set a fire.
making my body
ache with stiffness.
Or emotional pain today?
An explosion of cracked muscles and outbursts of tears.
I know because of you.
I am strong.
But sometimes I question if I'm strong enough.
How does one deal with the demons that attack their self worth and abilities?
Through this, I still believe that life will be beautiful once again.
but the ugliness of it can sneak up at any moment.
And trust me it doesn’t take long for the ugliness to appear
Sinking down into a black hole
When I scream no one hears me.
Because maybe those screams are in my head. You see it’s as if the beautiful and ugly parts of my existence are fighting one another.
Now, can’t you see how exhausting you are perfect flaw?
I hate that I can’t escape you and yet there is beauty within the cracks that are put together like a puzzle piece to form me in the image of God and all his glory.
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